This past week has been a doozy of an emotional roller coaster. Our family has enjoyed some wonderful triumphs as others in the world have simultaneously experienced great pain. This thing called Facebook puts this dichotomy in your face. It’s a strange thing.
2/17 ~ I was reminded that if I am a woman who honors God right where I am, I am in ministry. No matter if I’m doing “what I’m called to do” or not. Because ultimately, I’m called to mother my children and be a wife to my husband. That other stuff may or may not happen. This stuff is happening now. And if I overlook it to look for “the next thing” or despise it because it’s not “my calling”, I’ll miss the blessing that right in front of my face. Timely reminder because…
2/18 ~ Stinkerelly’s “behavior chart” started today. It seems to really be working!!
As I was so excited about getting a grassy back yard for my family, a ministry couple we admire was losing their first born child. When we first learned the news, I immediately thought of my own loss from the same disease. I was taken right back to that day in my life when my dear cousin was yanked from me. I cried as I ran FSU’s campus for hours in the wee hours of the morning the day I lost Kenneth. Today, I wished for a place to run, but had none. All I could do was kneel and cry and pray for this dear family.
2/19 ~ 1) When Mr. Old School got home from work, he took over the kids and I sat in quiet for 10 whole minutes. It was needed and appreciated! 2) Suddenly, we have ministry opportunities popping up. Opportunities we didn’t ask for. God is up to something!
2/20 ~ The back yard was almost completed and we were able to bless the landscaper by inviting him to join us in our first meal enjoying our new yard. It was wonderful to share our love for each other and our love for the Lord with someone else. Really wonderful.
2/21 ~ 1) Productivity rocks!! 2) Awesomely-behaved kids who sat & ate lunch while I got a FREE pedi. 3) A FREE pedi. (Thanks, Mom.)
I’m very sad I wasn’t able to get to today’s memorial service. As wonderful a day we had, my heart remains heavy for them. And, on the other side of the world, violence is rocking Venezuela. I have college classmates who are directly affected by all of this. I cannot imagine their turmoil, to watch their homeland struggle like this.
2/22 ~ FAMILY TIME! We love our time with my aunt and her family. It’s always such a blessed time to laugh and worship together.
I told you. Roller coaster.
I don’t feel guilty for my own joy. And yet, I’m keenly aware of the sorrow of others right now. I’m moved to pray for others in a whole new way this week. Perhaps this gratitude journey is helping me to learn to see other people and their journeys beyond my own personal scope. My prayer is this doesn’t change; that it only grows.